Living with the Enemy

I didn't tell my husband I joined WW.  But he kept bugging me on where I was going on Tuesday nights and so I finally told him.  That night he offers me a bowl of ice cream.  WTH???  He hasn't offered me any before now.  And he knows I don't like cold stuff in winter.

The other day I was making mashed potatoes.  He says "should you be eating that?"

Sigh. This is why I didn't tell him as he turns into the food police, scale police, and suddenly shovels food my way.

I sorta lost it.  I said this is not a DIET!  This is to get me BACK on track to a more healthy and NORMAL way of eating and living.  I can eat WHATEVER I want, just in healthier portions.

Then I got sorta' nasty and said "Being fat is a bit of a blessing because I can see I am unhealthy! On the other hand you, being thin, you think that despite your diet of ice cream, sugar sodas and teas, cookies, crackers, candy (actually I just boiled it down to "crap") fool yourself into thinking beause you are not fat that you are healthy!!!"

Yes, I said it.  It was a huge light bulb moment for me.  Maybe I am the lucky one.

Trip Success and Failure

I tried to behave myself yesterday, I really did.  I suspect I used up all my extra "over the limit" points though.  I made it through most the day, even only having two slices of pizza for the lunch and skipping the chips altogether.  But going home I was naughty.  It was snowing and I had a three hour drive in front of me in the dark so I stopped and got fast food. Only ate 3/4 of it, the rest is in the fridge now but ugh, my gut wasn't happy with me.

Live and learn.

I am PMSing and so am having more urges to eat.  This is another one of my battles.  Three weeks I can behave myself and then the week before I can undo the whole thing.  So I am trying to think before I do.  Operative word, TRYING.

Two days before weigh in so I have time to behave yet.  I need to go to the store though and mix things up a bit. I am getting really tired of oranges, clementines, celery and carrots.  Even after eating them I feel like a bottomless pit and Lord knows, I got a big enough bottom!

Pic From the CC

I did it!

The photos are up.  There are three of me with the two folks I came in with.  So I cut them out because #1 I have no clue who they are #2 this blog is all about meeeeeee.  Ha ha!

Looking at these photos now I know why there aren't any of me. Had I had some sooner maybe I would have realized just how big I am. Jeez...

Road Trip



Erin Go Braghless, my Champion model horse

 I ate too many carrots today.  Ugh, my belly is saying no more please.  I still have 13 pts. to use yet but ugh, doubt I will.  Live and learn.

I have decided to go to Superior this Saturday to a model horse show.  Model horse equals what most folks see as toy horses.  Plastic, glass, resin.  I need a little fun and this show was a blast last year.  Looks to be even more so this year with goofy classes. Plus I'll be meeting a gal from my board there so that will make it even more fun.

Biggest issue will be meals.  Lunch is pizza and chips.  But I think I will be ok.  I for some reason have a different mind set this time.  None of this "OMG if I don't eat it all now someone will beat me to it" mentality.  Or "it's a treat".  Yah, problem was all I was eating was "treats".  They aren't treats if they are all I eat!  I'll bring along some grapes or fruit, maybe celery or a quarter of lettuce.  Not carrots, LOL.  Gads, they are making me gassy because I ate too many.  I need to pay attention to serving size even in the zero foods.  That and maybe get some Beano :).

So I figured since suddenly I have a social calendar that is starting to fill up I need a new bra.  Guess what, I went down a size and a cup size since I bought my last one! Yay!  YAY!!!

Tomorrow I get my hair cut too.  Get rid of this frizzball :D.

My "third" son is getting married June 4th.  He's a friend of my eldest son's, is adopted but always hung out here, wanting to move in etc.  So I "adopted" him and he calls me Mom.  He's done a few things the hard way but is a good soul and is finally growing up.  Like a fool he dropped out of high school but I talked him into returning and finishing and he did.  I am so proud of him because that couldn't have been easy.  Anyway, so now I want to make them a counted x-stitch wedding picture and find myself a nice dress for the event.  I have time of course so would be nice if I could be a few pounds down too.  I feel like my own kid is getting married except I don't have to pay for anything, ha ha!

Danger! DANGER!

When I put my 4# loss this week into the WW tracker this popped up!  "Danger!  Danger!  You are losing too quickly!  If you keep this up you shall die!"  or some such thing ;). 

Ok, one time. Can't I just ENJOY my ONE time?  Ha. I'm kidding of course.  I have been down this road a billion times (with a B) and know it is fleeting. 

So if I gain does it give me a tissue and a hug?

Oh, then it took a point away. Yah, that'll show me!

reality check 2011 : 325 lbs.

I found this on You Tube and can relate. I recommend also seeing her other videos and watch her belly dance (that was what I was searching for). She also has a blogspot.

Life Saver

Napping in the Sun

Here are the two boys napping in the sun.  It had been a rough few days weather-wise and these guys know how to take advantage of their solar heating powers.  Pony Striker to the left and Jack to the right, taken out my kitchen window.

My lifesavers

I was so glad to have these ready to go.  My husband is home again and he does not make it easy to diet.  He is one of those who is tall, can gain 70# and no one notices except he gets more banana shaped.  The man lives off of sugary ice tea,  store bought cookies and Ritz crackers.  And when he's not eating he is scrounging for something to eat which means he is in the way all of the time.  I don't like cooking around him because he's in the way, poking his nose into it, taking tastes etc. yet he won't cook.  It makes me mad.  So I was glad to have made these up earlier so I could just grab the container and eat them without him hovering about.