|Earth Day colt. End of an era.|
Yesterday was a year since my dad passed away. It has been a rough day all the way around for me. No one seems to care and that makes me mad too. I feel like saying to my husband when your dad dies I am going to treat you like you treated me. Pretending it didn't happen doesn't work! How far two little words would have gone..."I'm sorry" but I never got that, instead I get "what is up with your dad now?" Afraid someone will expect something from him. Oh I am very angry over it all even a year later.
So it has been a hard few days. I am tired and stressed and the weather has been crap until yesterday. I took my bike out for a ride to the next road and back. I would have gone farther but I had the dogs with me. I thought about it and may just go buy a new road bike (or get mine really fixed up) and just put it on the credit card. I am sick and tired of being broke yet husband has money to waste on cows and farm auctions and BS he then never uses.
And if I don't have my horses then what in hell do I have?
Sorry this is such a debbie downer post. I may delete it later...There is no one here I can say this all to without getting the "are you crazy" look or just a blank stare. Really, does it cost THAT much to say "I am sorry" and give a meaningful hug?